Saturday 27 November 2010

The War Widow

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

I am posting this poem after ‘Edith’ (a lady in her 90s) kindly contacted me to say that she and another war widow friend were moved by it. It appears that the friend's great-grandson has taught them to use a computer and access the Internet. I have to say it is wonderful to be contacted by someone from an age group that often has reservations about using the Internet if only because they feel intimidated by new technology. I will be a mere 65 next month but it just goes to show that we are never too old to learn new tricks.

To my surprise, Edith also told me that she enjoys dipping into my gay-interest blog as well my general blog. It appears she has always felt and thought of herself as a war widow since the death of a female partner who joined the Wrens (WRNS) during World War 2. No one knew of their relationship at the time of course. As far as anyone else was concerned they were simply two friends sharing a home. Apparently, they met at school and were secret lovers for some years. She never married or found anyone else to share her life that way but says she feels blessed for having loved and been loved.

Edith, it seems, has led an active life and continues to ‘feel blessed by wonderful friends and neighbours.'

A sad story, yet, beautiful too. Many thanks for sharing it with us Edith.

THE WAR WIDOW

A soldier’s widow knelt at his grave,
their children by her side;
comrades-in-arms gathered nearby
wondering (never aloud)
whose turn next to shed tears
at whose grave

A soldier’s widow swore on his grave
to love him till the end of time,
raise their children to take great pride
in a father whose presence
felt with lasting passion nor less
for his absence

The soldier’s widow took the left hand
of a thirty something veteran
who had lost his right hand in Iraq
the first time around
before the Mandarins of Power
had second thoughts

The soldier’s widow rose, took comfort
from the young man’s smile
that shone like a beacon of hope
from his wheelchair
among the wreckage of a life
once thought inviolate

A war widow wipes her children’s tears,
the Last Post ringing hollow in the ears


Copyright R. N. Taber 2010

Thursday 18 November 2010

Command Performance

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

CYNIC: Romance, huh! It’s just so corny. Who’s got time for it these days anyway?

POET: People who do corny, for a start.

CYNIC: Yeah, right. I thought they went out with the ark.

POET: Well, you know what thought did.

CYNIC: What?

POPE: Dived off a cliff to get picked for the Olympics.

CYNIC: So?

POET: The tide was out.

COMMAND PERFORMANCE

The moon, it’s dancing
on the branches of a tree
and I see you again,
the way you were with me
that other time
the Old Man willed us
to go free

The moon, it’s seducing
the brightest leaf on the tree
as I stand at a window
where you stood with me
that other time,
Earth Mother, anxious
we feel free

The moon, it engaged
with our fears and desires
as we stole a first kiss
in an empty room carrying
noises from below,
people partying, indifferent
to all else

The moon, it made love
to the brightest leaf on the tree,
serenaded by the wind,
watched over by guardians
of the night sky
conspiring to spare love
a rough passage

The moon, it’s dancing
on the branches of a tree
and I see you again,
the way you are with me;
gay, in love, inspired
by the age-old wisdom
of a natural world

Copyright R. N. Taber 2010

Wednesday 17 November 2010

Waiting on the Eternal Sunshine of Open Hearts and Minds

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

For readers who often ask about my informal poetry reading on the 4th plinth in London's Trafalgar Square in 2009; the entire eb streamed video lasts an hour:

http://www.webarchive.org.uk/wayback/archive/20100223121732/oneandother.co.uk/participants/Roger_T [For now, at least, this link needs the latest Adobe Flash Player  and works best in Firefox; the archives website cannot run Flash but changes scheduled for later this year may well mean the link will open without it. Ignore any error message and give it a minute or so to start up. The video lasts an hour. ] RT 3/18

Meanwhile, once upon a time...

STUDENT (shivering): How can you laugh and joke when it is so cold? I’m freezing.

TEACHER (recently engaged): That’s because you’ve never been in love.

STUDENT (scornfully): What’s that got to do with anything?

TEACHER: One day, if you’re really lucky, you’ll find out.

I did.

 WAITING ON THE ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF OPEN HEARTS AND MINDS

Autumn, it has gone
and soon there will be snow
but I have you
and you have me, wherever
we may go

Winter, it might be long
and spring may take its time
but I am to you
and you to me as a love poem
is to rhyme

Spring. new beginnings,
hearts and minds opening up
like garden flowers
to the eternal sunshine
of better days

Seasons, they pass
and nature will have its way,
just as I with you
and you with me, no matter
we are gay

Lovers everywhere
are always there for each other
just as I for you
and you for me, one summer
forever



Copyright R. N. Taber 2010

Monday 15 November 2010

It's Magic

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

Not so long ago I was waxing lyrical about Doris Day. A reader who has some kind words to say about my villanelles has asked if I would write one about Doris. I have done my best although no poem can do justice to this amazing woman. I’d like to dedicate the poem to her.  Some people hate villanelles, of course, but I have a passion for them. I love the discipline they impose on the poet. So perhaps this poetic form is not inappropriate given that acting and singing, too, require discipline.

Gay or straight, don't we all have our favourite icons, inspiring/reassuring/comforting us for one reason or another? Oh, and why not ...? We all need that feel-good factor for which we ordinary mortals rarely if ever get the chance to thank those from all walks of performance art who work hard at providing it.

Oh, and Doris was born on this day, April 4th 1922 ...which makes here ...who cares? Thank you Doris for making so many people (like me) feel happy just as we stand on the brink of feeling, well  ... otherwise.

Photo: Doris Day (taken from Wikipedia)

IT’S MAGIC

Oh, how I love Doris Day,
singer, actress, gem;
she takes my breath away

Voice now bright and gay,
now like a lovely hymn;
oh, how I love Doris Day

Sparkling, come what may,
as a clear mountain stream;
she takes my breath away

No matter where I may lay
me down, she’s my dream;
oh, how I love Doris Day

She’s all the best critics say,
sheer magic for all time;
she takes my breath away

Though blond hair turn grey,
the spirit shall never dim;
oh, how I love Doris Day,
she takes my breath away

Copyright R. N. Taber 2010

Saturday 13 November 2010

August and Genet

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

[Update: July 8th 2018]: A few years on, and I will be 73 this year...still looking on the bright side of life, and no regrets about coming out  as a gay man years ago - to everyone, not just a select few. I  only wish there had been a sufficiently gay-friendly climate in both family and society which would have encouraged me to do so much sooner.]

I said on a recent post that I may not be able to continue posting daily to my blogs. This was due to computer problems; a virus attacked all my Word files and my anti-virus protection proved useless. A friend has lent me a spare pc and I have ordered a laptop...so hopefully I can just blog on...

Now, I wrote this poem in 1971. I was a full-time student when I wrote the poem and had just finished reading several novels by Jean Genet (in translation). Love or hate this French existentialist…there is no ignoring him! In 1996, I took the title for a small selection of gay-interest poems published by Aramby Publications (Wire poetry booklets series No. 12) before including it in my first major collection.

The poem first appeared on the blog in May 2009. A short, simple poem, it is nevertheless one of my favourite poems among all those I have written. Moreover, I appear to have picked up a significant number of new readers this year which is why I am posting poems that appeared some time ago as not everyone will have had time to explore the archives. I can but hope regular readers will bear with me and enjoy re-reading some poems. Oh, and yes, I do know it is November, not August. I may be in my mid-60s now but I've still got a few marbles left...hehe [Tomorrow, two poems for Remembrance Sunday.]

AUGUST AND GENET

Bright eyes
follow black waves
of handsome hair

Sweaty hands
delight in outrageous
denial

Ah, beauty rare,
beauty dear, shines there,
shines here,
like torchlight
on a thief

A pain grips
troubled loins, makes
breathing hard

Black waves
will smother a man
if he lets ‘em

Copyright R. N. Taber 1996; 2000

[Note: This poem first appeared in August and Genet (Wire Poetry Booklet series, 12) Aramby Publications, 1996 and subsequently in my first collection, Love And Human Remains, Assembly Books, 2000.]

Friday 5 November 2010

It only Takes a Hug OR Cue for Life

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber

[Update - April 24th 2020: With coronavirus COVID-19 likely to demand a significant degree of social distancing from us for some time yet, there will be many of us desperately missing the hug that says "I love you" in as many shapes and forms as love itself.] RNT 

This relates to a time when Pride events in the UK were more friendly than cliquey, more meaningful than trendy. You could go on your own and feel part of what is often referred to as a gay 'community' which, more often than not in my experience, during latter years at least, is more wishful thinking  than fact. Oh, and you could also go on your own and find yourself homing in on the real reason you were there but were too shy or scared (or both) to admit it...

I met my late partner at a Gay Pride march some years ago. He was killed in a road accident.  We did not have long together and I never met anyone else about whom I felt anywhere near the same (or who felt anywhere near the same about me); no subsequent relationship even came close. Whatever, I count myself blessed for taking my cue for life from a love, given, returned and (still) shared in everything I do.

IT ONLY TAKES A HUG or CUE FOR LIFE

Whenever you'd hug me
I'd feel warm, safe, good inside,
and when you let me go
that pleasure was never spent
but continued to ferment
in me as it did that first time
we met at Gay Pride
in pouring rain, sheltering
under a shop awning,
vowing never to go again,
even as we laughed
until the sound soaked us through
and through, neither of us
quite knowing how we'd bonded
so soon, yet we had

Ah, but we saw in each other
a potential rescuer from remains
of the day, confident in a look
that said, I'm so glad you're gay.
won't you come with me,
back into the rain (your place
or mine?) and let's dry out
our clothes, get warm, no need
to be shy about being naked
or where it well might lead even
(we're grown-ups after all);
we could be just what the doctor
ordered, a fix of (real) life,
so how about we give it a go - or
we'll never know?

So we did, and it only took a hug
after that to make me feel as on top
of the world as at that Gay Pride
when we got soaked in pouring rain,
vowed never to go again,
but knew we would if only for seeing
in each other such tell-tale signs
as all lonely people dream of reading
in body language equal
to their own, spelling out a sense
of coming home, light
at the end of a tunnel grown
like Pinocchio's nose
for living a lie, fearing the worst,
denying the best

Though death be unkind in its parting us,
I 'll take my cue for life from your hugs

Copyright R. N. Taber 2008; 2018

[Note An earlier version of this poem has appeared on the blog previously under the title 'It only Takes a Hug'.]