Years
ago, many gay men and women would get married or even enter a religious order rather than
confront their sexuality head-on and learn to live with and enjoy it. For a start, for those to whom it is an important part of mind-body-spirit, religion should be a path to fulfilment, not a means of escape. While it isn't only gay people who find themselves having to sacrifice the love of their lives to various socio-cultural-religious expectations, if not dogma, this is primarily a gay-interest blog so...
It is one
of our greater modern tragedies that so many gay people worldwide are still growing up in a
gay-unfriendly environment and seeking escape rather than fulfilment; it is likely to haunt them for the rest of their lives.
HAUNTED, WHEREVER LOVE LOSES OUT TO (SO-CALLED) CONVENTION
When I
was a young man,
I tried
out dating girls because that’s what young men
are
expected to do
I
couldn’t understand
why I
felt so attracted to another man as I’d been told
it was a
sin
I tried
to stop these feelings
overwhelming
me, but couldn’t get you out of my mind
no matter
how I tried
You
haunted me
day and
night, couldn’t concentrate for long on anything
but you
I so
needed to know
more
about your body, mind, and spirit than making love
in wet
dreams
I’d hold
you close,
kiss your
smiling mouth, entwine with your naked body,
let it
into mine
I can but
remember
that
starry night we had when you said you loved me too,
but being
gay was not for you
At your
wedding
the
radiance of your smile spread like summer, won over
everyone
but me
Copyright
R. N. Taber 2010
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