https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber
"Openness may not completely disarm prejudice, but it's a good
place to start." Jason Collins
On my general poetry blog, I have been posting poems related to the
Russian invasion of Ukraine. New reader,
J.H. has emailed me, to express disappointment in my not publishing a new poem
here during LGBT History month. He also reports that LGBT friends living in Ukraine
have good reason to dread, perhaps more than most, what will happen to them should their country come under Russian control.
Apologies, on both points. On the first, my only excuse is being in my
late 70's now and left all but impotent by years of hormone therapy for my
prostate cancer. My imagination was more fertile during the years I was
sexually active and I'm glad you enjoyed many of the poems you have accessed in
the blog's archives.
Regarding your gay friends in Ukraine, we can but hope a Ukraine under
Russian control will not reflect what would appear to be a majority view in
Russia against same sex relationships. I
am told it isn’t easy to be gay in Ukraine, but LGBT folks are mostly left in
peace and free to demonstrate for Equal Rights.
Now, I am posting a poem here today whose themes will be familiar, but I
hope will resonate with any readers anywhere who feel - for
whatever reason - unable to come out to family and friends. Been there, done
that, and am still haunted by the experience some 60+ years on.
I think it was in 1914 when Jason Collins made sporting history by being
the first professional athlete to declare publicly that he was gay; stigma all
but removed, others followed his lead.
I well recall how I had just left school when I discovered Giovanni’s
Room by James Baldwin on my local library shelves; it was first novel
I read that reassured me that being gay is no sin, but as natural as
breathing.
I'd known I was gay since I was 14 years old, but to my shame, it would
be another twenty years before I began to look the world in the eye as a gay
man. I would not wish a closet existence such as I endured during those
in-between years on my worst enemy.
Thankfully, many people, especially young people, are more inclined to
take a person’s sexuality in their stride these days, being more interested in
the person than his or her private life.
Sadly, some people, including followers of certain religions, remain as
judgemental as ever of we LGBT folks and are essentially homophobic. Their
powers that be will deny it, of course, but I have met many a good person whose
religion has made them feel they must not only choose between Faith and Family,
but between their sexuality and the sense of spirituality with which their
religion has inspired them.
As I have said many times on my poetry blogs, and in my poems, no
religion has a monopoly on spirituality nor the right to dictate how
mind-body-spirit should feel.
While I mean no disrespect to any religion, having met some wonderful
people from all walks of life, during my 70+ years, I can but ask as I have
asked repeatedly on both poetry blogs - whatever happened to agreeing to
differ?
L-G-B-T+, LIFE FORCES
I once ran for cover
into a dark lonely closet for fear
of faux stereotypes
always camped outside my door
awaiting an opportunity
to gobble me up, if only if only
to spew me out again
into a mucky trough of public opinion
as it was way back then
Years passed. I emerged
from what I’d taken to be safety,
but proven wrong
by an active mind-body-spirit’s
ever challenging me
to be my own man, face prejudice
and bigotry head-on,
remind the world that gay’s not a word
but a living, feeling person
Now, I grow old, the world
a kinder place for the most part,
yet faux stereotypes
continue to thrive, would have me
put down for the ‘sin’
of being my own person, embracing
a sense of spirituality
and close kinship with nature and humanity
some would yet deny me
Come a time, I must look
death in the face, I shall find peace
of a kind, still denied
such as I in communities worldwide
betraying a life force
without equal, giving truth a bad name,
insisting we hang our heads
in shame for freeing mind-body-spirit of fetters
imposed by our ‘betters’
So, to whom the wiser soul
among those who strive to negotiate
life’s open mazes,
he or she who would follow natural instinct
for all they may be outlawed
or worse, accused of sacrilege, blasphemy.
for but staying true
to mind-body-spirit by choosing to ignore those
promoting faux news
Spirituality is no competition,
as certain religions would have us see it,
any reward in Heaven
due only to those who consent to subscribing
to such ways of Believing
as set in stone, yet no God of Love
nor Earth Mother
would, surely, reject or condemn any LGBT person
for coming into their own
Our differences don’t make us different, only human
in the all-seeing eye of self-perception
Copyright R. N. Taber, 2022
[Note: This post-poem also appears on my general poetry blog today.] RT
