Mission Impossible

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Oh, but life is full of the most delightful surprises at the most unexpected times ... 

Various socio-cultural-religious forces in societies worldwide may well may do their best to deter mind-body-spirit, but the better part of human nature will always find a way to rise above them wherever necessary and bring us to the Crossroads of Decision.

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE

We were simply watching TV

and I thought little of it

as you put an arm around me

but lay my head

against you, got comfortable

till a hand tilted my chin,

launching me there and then

on Mission Impossible

I saw a passion in your eyes

I’d never see before

as your lips homed in on mine

for a first kiss

but I wasn’t sure I wanted this

so turned my head away,

even managing to splutter

I wasn’t gay

Your face red with shame,

tears in your eyes

telling tales on frustrated desires

you’d kept from me,

I wasn’t sure I wanted to know

about such things,

but couldn’t run away, knew

I had to stay

I saw hope flare in your face

in spite of the tears;

suddenly, you had me pinioned

against a plump cushion,

my poor heart thumping madly

as your quivering lips

found their target this time

if clumsily

Your mouth on mine warmer,

sweeter than I imagined

another boy’s mouth could be,

I silently confessed - to

wet dreams about you for years,

drooling over your body

in the showers after Games

or P E

The weight of your body lighter,

your kiss less determined,

I felt your confusion burning

a hole in my shirt,

struggled to reason why my mind

should resist this being kissed

that was, after all, but answering

a cry from the heart

You retreating, expressions

of guilt and pain

reasserting senses I’d tried

to ignore,

I flung my arms around you

and drew you close,

free at last to relish the joy

of mutual response

We made love on a fluffy rug

(he’d brought a condom)

till all we wanted to do was lie

in each other’s arms,

no more lies or even words,

just an intimate silence

saying more than even lovers

can express

[From: Tracking the Torchbearer by R. N. Taber, Assembly Books, 2012]