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Although I have been openly gay for many years, people still
ask me if I am happy and if I have any regrets about being gay and therefore
‘deprived’ of a ‘normal’ life!
Well, I certainly don’t feel deprived, and what on earth is
‘normal’ anyway? Like most adjectives in any language, everyone one has their
own take on it.
As for regrets and being happy...Well, yes, occasionally I
wonder how my life might have been had I been born one of the heterosexual
community’s own and let it dictate how I should live my life...but not
often.
Am I happy? Yes, I am happy in my own way although I dare
say I’d have been a lot happier if there had been more ups and less downs
throughout my life. Yet, I suspect many
if not most of us can say the much same regardless of colour, creed, sex or
sexuality...
True, I miss having my love to keep me warm, but I have some
dear friends, my poetry and nature to sustain me, and it is more than enough to
keep me as happy as I suppose any of us can expect to be given the state of the
world we live in.
SOMETIMES
Sometimes I regret being gay,
take long walks in the rain…
pausing now and then to ponder
puddles, wonder why I envy
the conventional person living
a conventional life in a two up,
two down, plagued by in-laws,
wife and 2.5 children
Sometimes I regret being gay,
take long walks by the canal…
pausing now and then to watch
geese flying high and free, just
as I yearn to be but feel trapped
in a cage where society would
have me stay though it dare not
give public voice to the thought
or risk being taken to court
Sometimes I regret being gay
take long walks on the heath…
pausing now and then to chat
with this and that person (some
gay, some not) about the weather,
global warming, War on Terror,
so much poverty in the world,
and how we should be glad - for
a fine day and the way we are
Sometimes, being gay is a burden
till, with you, I lay my body down
[From: Accomplices to
Illusion by R. N. Taber, Assembly Books, 2007]
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